Runaway

By Jessica Noifeld

She was labelled a fool for running away, by the voice of society,

A silly girl attached to dreams, no conventions she could breathe.

In lala land they said she lived, forgetful of her mind,

But they did not know how much she trained her thoughts of human kind-

They thought her a fool for listening to, the singing of her heart,

For quitting jobs and skipping rules and following the stars.

She studied Self instead of books, meditating every dawn,

A foolish girl for quitting schools, but in stillness she did learn.

Running away from laws and plans dictated by the masked controllers,

Criticised by the conventions and the ones that did furlough us.

But running from thoughts she never did, she sat and she did listen,

Observing the voice that stemmed from heart until her world did glisten.

Aware of her Self she did become and discerning of her ego,

Aligning her spine and releasing trauma, connecting to Indigo.

And so a perspective is that she runs, but another is that she’s free,

Perhaps she never does run away and alignment is her key.

So, here I am facing a thousand fears from thoughts projected from my mind and from all the others :- ‘ you can’t travel’, ‘England is closed’, ‘There’s a global pandemic’, ‘But you’re travelling with a baby’, ‘It’s not all about you Jessica’, ‘When are you going to start taking things seriously?’, ‘when are you going to get a real job?’. I could go on...

Well my friends, I’m going for my heart. And for Indigo’s. I’m going in the name of Divine Intervention. 

It’s taken balls I tell you. I’ve been catching flights alone to here there and everywhere since the age of 19. Society doesn’t get it. They think I must be rich or bum around. Actually, and this is not ego talking, but I’m one of the most disciplined people I know. I work hard when I need to and find balance between that and repose; it also takes discipline to find repose, I have found. That and I’m satisfied with having just enough; with all that in mind, I have found my personal equilibrium and I thrive to stay connected to it.

This lifestyle is not for everyone and may not even be for me forever, but I can safely say that I love my life and I cherish my book-bursting experiences with gratitude, even the ones that hurt along the way.

I must admit, following this particular calling to fly to Mexico during a global pandemic with my 7 month old has been one of my biggest challenges yet. The judgements projected as a consequence of leaving a locked down country have been a hella effort to shield from - it’s not just myself I need to think about these days you see. Had it just been me I probably would have been in Mexico months ago. 

And so, here we are, and as we float, our little duo in transit, I feel that oh so familiar feeling of freedom and peace. In love with the unknown and so grateful for our courage. The courage in our hearts, from which we did not run away.

Ahhh let the way lead the way

Know thy ego. Know Thy Self. Egolution.